matthew103word1

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-17T22:26:00

2005-10-18T05:27:47Z

100 degrees along to horizon, 60 degrees up, beautiful full moon 9:15

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-16T22:32:00

2005-10-17T05:34:16Z

70 degrees above, 125 degrees along the horizon, SE 10:25 full moon.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-16T00:19:00

2005-10-16T07:20:37Z

haha.... I feel loved.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-15T16:03:00

2005-10-15T23:05:50Z

Yesterday was SUCH a good day!

haha funny band people....

We need to be super focused this next week, and work on drill.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-13T22:53:00

2005-10-14T06:19:25Z

45 degrees up, 250 along the horizon at 10:15 p.m. gibbous moon.

Emo people make me want to cry!

So to cure zombie-ness try taking a vacation, a long hot bubble bath, or just speak your mind to someone that really gets on your last nerve.

So I had a temper-tantrum in the middle of band rehearsal on Wednesday. It was probably the most childish stupid, selfish and liberating expirence in my life. Wow to be a child again...... *sigh* After that I felt really stupid that I had a ten second major mental break down in front of seventy people. I am serious when I say, I have the worst timing ever. That was like a three year build up of pressure that just kinda exploded, luckly I didn't punch anyone, which has happened in the past. (or hit someone with a mallet in the temple, I wonder if I'll ever be charged with assult?)

Happy Valentines!

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-10T20:57:00

2005-10-11T04:46:53Z

I am kinda living like a zombie right now. I have no opinions, no convictions, no ambitions, no motivation, and really no passion for anything. I am one of the most boring people on earth.

School is kinda sucking right now, mostly because I'm being super lazy.

I'm ready for this band thing to end.....it isn't that i hate band itself its just that I'm getting sick of some of the people.

argh!!! static....

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-04T22:50:00

2005-10-05T06:03:37Z

I enjoy writing lab reports...no thinking invovled.

I think I have damaged my lips, they need fixing. They have hurt since last friday.

I really wish I knew when the test was in History.

So there is alot of drama going on right now, and personally I'm not down with the sickness. I would rather take a long bubble bath or something.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-03T23:40:00

2005-10-04T07:33:29Z

You are wrong actions speak louder than words!!

Bad timing doh!

I love me no matter what anyone says.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-10-01T23:14:00

2005-10-02T06:16:58Z

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matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-29T22:15:00

2005-09-30T05:27:43Z

DBQ = alot of suck!!

I'm tired of staying neutral.

Why do women love drama, seriously they can laugh, cry, scream, and gossip at the same time! It is amazing.....but very annoying sometimes.

The deal on Saturday sounds alittle lame wish I had made "plans" ahead of time. It going to be a night of argument, akward silence and a mamoth load of bordom.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-26T21:16:00

2005-09-27T04:47:36Z

Went climbing on that one day...fun, but i hate going with people that climb way better than me, and I hate climbing with people that are way taller than me. I think I'm going to stop the climbing deal, because I'm used to being naturally good at everything. *whines*

At lunch today we had a very interesting discussion about some crazy stuff.

I went to that stupid college and career lecture, that along with the lunch discussion makes me really depressed. What should I do with my life??

"The human mind is the most powerful thing on earth.......The fact that you need a licence to catch a fish, but nothing is required to make a child..... scares me."

-Jonathan Stephens

matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-21T21:52:00

2005-09-22T04:55:16Z

Have you ever seen a fat person try to run? Its so funny...for the peson watching........but it isn't very funny for the person running. How are they ever going to get in shape if people laugh when they run!!! Plus fat people have the jiggle factor, which is hard to harness, because the jiggling of your fat can mess with your momentum. Sweat gets everywhere and it feels like you are swimming by the end of the run. Oh yeah swimming for fat people is hard also, because no one wants to see a fat guy with his shirt off. Its just gross....and kinda funny! Who is better Frank Rosleinni or J.J. Johnson!? I want to buy a Gangsta load of legos because there is no toy on earth as cool as legos!!

matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-15T23:04:00

2005-09-16T06:10:00Z

I went running today and then these guys that I came across were looking at me as if to say "hey... don't you know that fat kids don't run"

I think that Constitution Day should be the new September 6th day!

The best sectional ever!

matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-14T23:11:00

2005-09-15T06:17:38Z

The next day is going to be great...............

I think the point of a livejournal is to be as emo and vague as possible,

but who really cares about what I think!!!!!

matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-12T21:33:00

2005-09-13T05:25:04Z

Have you ever bathed a brass instrument? Let me tell you it is not a party. I still don't understand what all the globular green stuff is.

What should the school buy if they had $500,000 to spend on anything?

I am way to white for this spanish class. Every time the teacher gives out an assignment I just want to cry, because everything is in spanish! How can I do the stupid thing if I don't know spanish. I hate being labeled "the bad kid" in a class. Teachers sometimes find one kid and assume that he is going to be a pain. So then the teacher treats you like a jerk the rest of the year.

Dig this

Women = time x money

time is money so time = money

Women = money x money

Women = money^2

money is the root of all evil so

money = √evil

women = √evil^2

so you can conclued that ...

Women = evil

I am not lying!

matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-07T18:23:00

2005-09-08T01:29:24Z

Argh!! I feel like such a jerk.....I DON'T UNDERSTAND WOMEN!!

*sighs*

Oh well life is still good, even tho I'm a jerk face. You wanna know why? Because we don't have practice tonight.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-06T21:55:00

2005-09-07T05:09:48Z

I really don't understand women!

Practice was good but weird. Molly had bite marks on her neck, and me and Jono started to taking off our pants. I was really tired and didn't feel like running a lap for my section. Mr. Sanchez is an..and I'm almost fed up with him.

I need to recruit four freshman trombonists to become drum major, and six if Jono is going to be drum major with me. Stupid!! this pretty much means that there is no waySanchez is going to let me be drum major.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-09-05T23:06:00

2005-09-06T06:08:45Z

Best weekend ever!

Yes... I win at life!

matthew103word1 @ 2005-08-29T20:38:00

2005-08-30T03:45:22Z

I going to start being nice to people because..........

Awww forget it, i can't think of a good reason to be nice to "everyone"

I love school so so much!! I just wish the band was directed by me. I also wish I could be part of the tucson high band and also play in the foothills band or Crona del sol. It really doesnt matter I just want to play for someone awesome.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-08-21T00:32:00

2005-08-21T07:36:51Z

climbing is fun, but i suck at it so so much!!

I'm tired

I am a single force, a force of one, and its getting lonely.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-08-11T00:12:00

2005-08-11T07:20:45Z

hey the band is really um... different

I really dont like the fact that im stuck talking to the creepy tuba players or all the "blonde" chicks behind me!!

this Sanchez guy separated me, molly and jono!!

matthew103word1 @ 2005-07-17T22:28:00

2005-07-18T05:29:44Z

So many choices.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-07-17T02:26:00

2005-07-17T09:33:11Z

Hey have you ever highlighted the little mood face on Lj. Oh man the face changes!!! lol a happy face turns scared.

Its either really cool or its just really late, but I'll let you see for yourself!!

matthew103word1 @ 2005-07-17T02:09:00

2005-07-17T09:22:03Z

I watched my friend get shot right in front of me. Then he digs the freakin thing out of his hand with a pare of needle nosed pliers. Lets just say I almost passed out looking at it.

The funny thing about this is that is was his birthday. Wowzers that really looked like it hurt, We wanted to get it out with a magnet but we couldn't find one that was strong enough. So he got a knife and pliers, iced his hand, bit on a spoon, and just did it.

Its a good thing it was a freakin bee bee gun, and that he will never point a loaded gun at his hand again!! I just can't believe it went so far into his hand.

matthew103word1 @ 2005-07-14T23:50:00

2005-07-15T07:27:33Z

After not being able to sleep for more than three straight hours at a time the last two weeks, I finally crashed. I have been doing so much thinking about so many people, that these last few days have left me...tired.

My concern for so many people is bothering my ability to see my own problems, i guess it is a shield or something like that. When i confront myself about how fake I am with some people, or how dishonest I am. I always play the "well so and so has it worse" card. Or I'll say "why am I concerned about myself when I should help someone else" The point is, I fail to see what a liar I have become to myself, and that the only way to bring change is internal liberation. How can anyone ask someone to be something that they are not. It just doesnt work.

I am really only honest with a few selected people, but why is that? I shouldn't have any secrets to harbor. I think the reason is because my mind is like the US government. I have a internal lobby group inside my mind. One for family, one for women, one for school, one for teachers and so on and so forth. Each one of these groups puts on a front to get what they want. They each rationalize cutting corners, lying and cheating to get what they want. Unfortunately like our government there are conflicts. When two fronts must be mixed together then these lies start to surface. The inconsistencies began to make more confusion. The answer that i can see is to cut down the "act" and all the stupid fronts and find a way to have all the areas of my life on the same team. I can't have secrets, that if this group knew then it would mess up things in this different area. If i wouldn't say something around this person, but its ok around another, then i shouldn't be saying it. I guess what I'm saying is that I need a smaller "mental government" that isn't so divided.

Of coarse all this is easy to say......but doing it is alittle bit different.